Thoughts for October

I have been really struggling the last few months with figuring things out and staying at my best. It seems that I let all the structure that made me happy and successful slip away. I have realized that over time I have detached from people and things that will help me succeed. I did not consider that as much as keeping surrounded by positive people, reading, listening to educational audio programs make you better, the lack can have you slip pretty far.

As I evolved last year, to a stronger more positive person, I very naturally had different associations, habits and interests. Somehow over the course of 1 year I let those things slip little by little and did not want to put the energy into keeping up with things. As a result I found myself lost and not feeling so good about anything really. I let my fitness slide and then began not wanting to see the people that made me strong. I guess in a way I was avoiding what I thought would be embarrassment of letting others down. What I did not realize is that is what those people and support system is for. It is to keep you lifted when you need it. I never wanted to admit that I needed support (to myself or others) Instead, my mind told me that if i could lay low for just a bit I would snap back and be fine. Well, laying low caused me to slip further and further. At some point I then felt it was too late and that I have now completely offended and turned off the people that could help me. That again resulted in my mind saying "Just a few more weeks, I can get back on track and re-connect" I am here to tell you, a few more weeks does not come, You must take action Right Away and that shapes the future behavior.

Sure there were some pretty hard personal adjustments over the past year, I had to admit to myself that I made some poor choices on how I responded to it. I finally took a look at my habits that were shaping my thoughts. I had to sit down and really think about what my actions, habits and mindset was when I was my strongest and happiest. I discovered that I let most of those things go.

So how do I get Back? I needed to make some commitments and most of all let people know about my commitments. The positive caring people around me will help me stay on track and get back to my "normal self" faster than I could ever do on my own.

To most people there may not have been a difference in my attitude. Most people that I know know me as the energetic, happy, confident person that like to help other people. (I am sure those reading this that know me may be surprised that I have been feeling defeated, those close will be thinking oh, that's what was wrong) In my head I wanted to be that for people but there is still something holding me back. I can be confident for others but I am sometimes paralyzed by my own insecurities. There are times when for example, I will not even go down an aisle in a store if there are too many people in it and I will never walk by a mirror (If I do I can't look). Taking notice of these things is what is helping me see how to improve.

So what Am I doing now???

I have some pretty specific goals and commitments for October:
- For 1, this Blog. I will be able to open up more here and be able to look back on things faster to make adjustments (it also just may help someone else who feels similar) : )

- Although I continued coaching, I made a commitment to really make an effort for my customers and friends to be there for them and jump in proactively, listen to what people really need from me and help as much as I can. I feel like the past year I let some people down and was not 100% present for them.

- Reading and Audio programs are a big part of re-shaping my mindset. Here are my commitments for October:
- Audio = Success Principles by Jack Canfield and Car Smart by Chalene Johnson
- Books = Transformation by Brian Tracey and Transformation by Bill Phillips
I will read at least an hour per day and listen to the audio in the car instead of the radio.

- My Schedule. I was at my best when I scheduled the things I needed to do in my calendar. I sat down and plugged everything in for the month already. Here is the basic shell of my schedule so far:
- up by 4:30am 4:30 - 5am check emails
- 5am - 6am workout
- 6:30 - 8am Breakfast for the kids, get them ready for school etc.
- 8am - 8:30am Set Social network updates for the day, emails etc
- Depending on the day and my new work schedule I will put Coaching business work in where there are gaps. (9am - noon or 8pm - 10pm)
- 5pm - 8pm Dinner and time with the Kids and Wife : )
- 8pm - 9pm Coach work
- 9:30pm - Personal fun time & rest : )

- One full day per month I will have a day of no phone, no TV and no computer. I need that time to re-charge.

- My nutrition and Exercise Program. As I scheduled my workout time I also scheduled my meals on my calendar with the meal choices in the notes section. By setting alarms on my phone I can be sure I am eating on time and the right foods. Preparing meals in advance is a must. Every Sunday I will plan out the weeks meals and put what i can in containers to take on the go!


I will be tracking my progress mostly on facebook but here as well. It's been 3 days so far and I feel so much more on track and ready for the challenges. I did have 1 setback with my workouts but I managed to brush it off and just do a workout later in the evening. the important part was not to beat myself up and to get right back on track.


So, a long post and sort of jumped around a bit. I want to apologize to anyone that I may have shut out or let down over the past few months. I know that the relationships are not damaged and that I can get back in the swing of things. It took me a while to realize that but I finally did. I also learned that it is OK to need support and seek it out.

Thanks for Reading!